Day 4

I don't have any pics today...was slacking in that department this morning.

I do however, have a triumph to report.

Today I went back to work for the first time in 10 days and what was the first thing I was greeted with???

That's right...CHOCOLATE...(my nemesis, my cryptonite)

A lovely and thoughtful gift from my boss of dark chocolate covered raisins. (YUM)

Having just finished my morning smoothie the temptation was minimal.

I had my food prepped for the day and felt very confident that I could refrain from indulging...

...and then it happened!!! Someone ordered pizza for all!!!!

I was asked 3 times if I wanted pizza and I said no each time (struggling with my response each time I said it)

I started to have that anxious feeling...I was screaming on the inside "Give me the pizza!!!"

I had decided that if I was to be asked again I was going to say yes. At that very moment, my boss came around to give us all the afternoon off.

I put my coat on was heading for the door and then...I was asked...again!!!!

I paused, started to sweat at the pressure of doing the right thing. I frowned, hung my head and said no thank you.

I walked out of the building and was instantly over it. Actually, I was quite proud of myself.

I came home and had a healthy and clean meal of egg white frittata and garden salad.

Changing ones habits is never easy but it can be done. I proved to myself today that this journey is more important to me than a greasy (although delicious) piece of pizza. Something that would no doubt make me feel bloated, tired and remorseful.

I know what pizza tastes like, I've had it many times in my life (it's kinda why I am where I am). I'm not missing anything. But had I given in to it today I would have missed knowing what this triumph would feel like.

And it feels pretty good!

Day 2

Morning breakfast right from the Eat Clean book.  Oatmeal and Roasted Veg Fritatta and glass of water.

I have to say, I was really craving a fried egg sandwich and a latte but I sucked it up and ate this. It was sooo good and kept me full right to lunch.

So day two was a bit easier. Mostly because I was very busy braving the mall with my wifey (aka my best friend) today looking for a dress for her to attend a friends wedding on NYE. 

Now, usually a trip to the mall, knowing that I can't leave until that specific and most perfect item has been purchased would make me nervous. What with the Cinnabon and Thai Express, New York Fries, etc...all calling to me. But today, ha ha...I was prepared. I was armed with a full belly and clean snacks in my purse. And...I DID NOT CAVE!!!

Hours later, we left the mall with a gorgeous dress, a happy wifey and I, with a sense of pride for getting through the diet death trap, also referred to by some as the mall.

I got home and had my...

...Pumpkin Pie Protein Smoothie

Which got me through to dinner; roasted veggies and Quinoa. No pic tonight, didn't even think of it until after I ate it.

I know I should be eating 6 meals a day but today, it just didn't happen.

My focus for tomorrow will be to get my 6 meals in.

I feel good today. My food was satisfying, and clean. It wasn't a perfect day in the way that I had followed all the "rules". But, it was a better day than yesterday and a great stepping stone to tomorrow.

Day 1: Not quite the successs I was looking for

Not so Green Monster

So today was day one of my new journey.

I figured, why wait for the new year to start when I can start today.

My morning was great, had a tall glass of water and my delicious Not so Green Smoothie.

I carried on with my morning, trying to get my house back to a semi livable state after the Christmas Hooplah. You know, finding room for the new toys, taking things out of boxes so they take up less room...and then I get to the "treats" that we all leave out, on the coffee table for visitors (and by visitors I mean me!!! LOL)

One look at those yummy treats and I instantly had clean eating amnesia...

After this little mishap, normally I would throw in the towel and just eat dirty the rest of the day. But part of my promise to myself during this journey, is to be kind, patient and understanding with myself.

So, I had a little set back, I will not let it define my day or even a part of my day. It happened, I can't undo it, but I can make better choices going forward.

So as I wind down and reflect on my day, I plan for tomorrow, to be conscious of the decisions I make and take them, one at a time.

A little about me

I am a mommy of 2 wonderful kids. I work full time and am very active in my childrens school, activities and lives in general.

I have recently been introduced to Clean Eating and at home workouts.This blog will mainly document my journey into clean eating and working out and how my love for Italian food and my choice to be a vegetarian will affect this new stage in my life.

I was always fit into my early 20's. I was a figure skater and very active. I quite smoking and got an office job and the weight has been piling on since. Add an additional pregnancy and a failed marriage and eventually the weight issue became who I was.

I'm now taking my life, my identity and my health back.

Being that I have a full life as a mommy and a single woman, there will be a smattering of anecdotes from time to time I'm sure.