Nothing is worth sacrificing your health

It's been just over a month since my last blog and I have to say it's been a hard one.

Alot has happened and just as much hasn't.

Everything from cold and flu going through the house to, financial restraints; old boyfriends resurfacing and saying hateful things, to elevated stresses at work.

My healthful journey has been completely abandoned and my body can really feel it. I went from high energy and positive outlook to sleeping every moment I can and eating when I can't.

I hit the wall yesterday at work. I have been extremely stressed about a number things at work. I've had this "rock" resting in my gut for about a week now. I went in to the office yesterday and within and hour of being there was consumed with nausea and fever. I tried to rest at my desk for a good 45mins yet the symptoms didn't seem to be going anywhere.

With the stresses I have been feeling lately and how I was feeling physically I'd finally had it! I packed up and went home. Riddled with guilt I came home trying to convince myself that I needed to do this for me.

The stresses from work will be dealt with despite my not being there. I have to take care of myself. I have gotten to a place of physical discomfort and emotional frenzy. Bitch...wake up!!! This shit ain't normal!!!

When I finally got home I sat on the couch, my mind reeling, and somehow, fell asleep for the rest of the day.

I'm still not feeling great today and have taken the day off. The constant murmurs of guilt are hard to quiet but I have decided today will be my day of rest and rejuvenation.

Yoga, napping and light, clean eating to hopefully ease my mind and my stomach.

I'm hoping today will reboot my perspective so I can deal with the pressures and situations outside of my control and reverse the effects they have had on me.

I've been told I am a pleaser, someone who feels her only value is in doing for people and not letting anyone down. This isn't a bad quality to have but it can be dangerous when your own value rest's in how much you do for others.

I am aware of the type of person I am and I can recognize that I have abandoned my own needs. My symptom's are symptoms of neglect and stress and my focus now is on bring balance back into my life.

Hopefully, we can all recognize these symptoms early and attend to them before we get to a place of serious condition.

Take care of yourselves blogger peeps, nothing is worth sacrificing your health.